There is no one on this planet that can fully understand the depth of my silly worries (except for my husband and mother). Moving overseas is not going to be easy, and oddly enough, I’ve already decided to start worrying about some of the details (shocker).
Now, I don’t worry about rational things, like not knowing the language, getting lost on the subway, having my child fit in at school. I worry about things like the Japanese grocery cart (please note I am being partially sarcastic….but only partially).
That’s a Japanese shopping cart. You place baskets on the metal frame and then place the baskets on the cashier belt. Genius, right? No unloading every.single.item. Seems like a great idea. BUT….it’s what I was thinking about while laying awake in bed the other night. There I was, thinking this:
“Where will I put my baby in the cart?” “The cart doesn’t have a seat for my baby”. Hmmmm…do you notice something? I DON’T HAVE A BABY. I have a pre-schooler who will be 4 or 5 when we arrive in Japan. I am not pregnant, and sans an act of God, probably won’t be anytime soon. Yet there I was, laying in bed, worrying about where my hypothetical baby would go in the grocery cart.
Yes, seriously. It wasn’t a passing thought, I was actually concerned about this.
Then it hit me…..if God is moving me halfway around the world to a land of a new language, new home, new food, new stores, new shopping carts…then God has my back. God isn’t sitting up there waiting to laugh at me and see how I’ll handle it. He isn’t waiting to say “hah! Look at this lady, let’s see how she’s going to get by”.
If God directs our steps…He directs all of them. So, why do I need to worry about the silly things? Baby or no baby, God won’t abandon me.
The Cure for Anxiety
25 “For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? 27 And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? 28 And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, 29 yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! 31 Do not worry then, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear for clothing?’ 32 For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
34 “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
PS – I think I forgot to tell my husband about this incident of worry……..so he’ll get a good laugh when he reads this! 🙂